War inside.

I will always feel this void,
The bits of life you took away,
I don’t know if I’ll ever have them,
Or if things will change even if I do.

But this feeling inside,
Every time I’m reminded.
Sends my temper shooting,
I could almost explode,
It’s like a war inside.

But there’s a bitter acceptance,
That I’ll never get it back.
I just have to live this way,
Though it’s not like I planned.

But this rage inside,
With all my pride,
Wants to fight with you,
And snatch it back.
But you won my time.

Oh, and this feeling inside,
Every time I’m reminded.
Sends my temper shooting,
I could almost explode,
It’s like a war inside.

I wish(to get it right)

I’m on a learning curve,
And I want to get to the straight,
And I want to get there fast,
I hope I don’t skid off.

But my imagination humbles my ability,
It always has.
I wish to learn enough to get it right.

This learning curve is different,
I’m focusing as hard as I can.
I feel I can do better,
But why is this so important?

It could be the time that it’s taking,
It always is.
I wish to be patient enough to get it right.

I need to get through this,
There’s more at stake this time.
I hope to take it across,
This responsibility on my shoulders.

And the courage seems to be coming through,
It always does.
I wish for strength enough to get it right.