Not too long from now.

Not too long from now,
We’d all just come here.
Stepped into these halls,
And everyone was new.
There were different faces then,
So many of them have gone.

Not too long from now,
Everything was strange.
We were very apprehensive,
Like children in the dark.
Getting used to the surroundings,
People and the doors.

Not too long from now,
We had said our goodbyes.
We had come to restart,
Explore life as grownups.
We were together in the change,
Standing up in the world.

Not too long from now,
We’ll be going off again.
Off to another world,
Another new way of life.
So many memories to keep,
And moments to bring them back.

Not too long from now,
Some words will be left unsaid.
Some hearts will ache for long,
Some eyes won’t dry for long.
And we’ll wake up each morning,
And realise everything has changed.

Not too long from now,
We’d all have gone our own ways.
Not too long from now,
We’ll all just long for these days.
Not too long from now,
When now isn’t too long.

The King is back.

Make way for the king,
He’s finally back.
He’s in pretty good shape,
He’s right on track.
He’s a lover, he’s a dreamer,
He’s a poet, he’s a painter.
And he can,
Make some music too.

He’s been gone too long,
Thought he was soul searchin’.
Only to see,
It was laziness lurking.
He’s a lover, he’s a dreamer,
He’s a poet, he’s a painter.
Well he can,
String ‘em blues too.

He’s been missin’ y’all,
His poems and prose.
So welcome him back,
He’s commin’ back home.
He’s a lover, he’s a dreamer,
He’s a poet, he’s a painter.
And well he’s,
Come back for you.

Blessed

I’m sorry for the lack of courage,
I’m sorry for the mental age.
I’ve wanted to speak but my lips won’t move,
I’m sorry for pretending to be so aloof.

And I feel so blessed to still see you.

Lost

I can almost see it going away,
I’m surrendering to the ways of the world.
It wasn’t supposed to be this way,
I was supposed to bend my world to me.
I was to follow my path,
Build one if it wasn’t there.
My arrogance has let me down,
My soul crunching bitterness,
It split the spirit in me.

Now I look back at me,
My alter ego stands in the distance,
Not laughing at me,
Not regretting my decisions,
It’s just as emotionless as me.
And I wonder,
And I don’t understand anything,
Would things have been different?
Would fulfilled dreams give me feelings?

Will the pointless ever make sense?
Will my loneliness ever satisfy me?
Will the exodus in me ever subside?
Will it ever rise?
Will the lazy impatience pay off?
The gifts they promised for monotony,
The thrills they said would follow me.
And if I followed them,
I would have lost me anyway.

My plans seem like jokes,
My dreams and their ambitions,
My image of me withers in the wind.
Maybe it’s the missing past,
Probably the hollow in my soul,
Maybe the faith that never dies,
It still remains just my faith.
I almost have everything I lost,
There isn’t much I’ve missed.

In this huge little world,
There have been a billion opinions,
Six billion to be a little more precise,
I tried giving mine a place,
I misplaced it right on top.
So did everybody else,
Their respective opinions.
I need to trust mine more,
And make sure it works.

It’s strange you know,
A huge paradox of sorts,
My action betrays my faith,
And my faith betrays what I do.
They have their own opinions too.
I don’t know where I belong,
I don’t know where to put myself.
I try to put me on top,
But I forget to start from the bottom.

Fake love, Real blues.

I had a girl,
And I loved her right.
She didn’t even care,
She was so uptight.
Said, I don’t give a damn,
What you feel for me.
I’ll break your heart,
It’s a thrill for me.
So I left her there,
In the middle of town.
She cried and told everyone,
I let her down.

Every time I see her,
I remember she hurt me.
But I control my temper,
She’s not even worth it.
Says, she’ll never love anyone,
Like she loved me.
I say, girl let me tell you,
You didn’t even love me.
I could see it always,
With every move you made.
It’s hard to believe,
You were really that fake.

War inside.

I will always feel this void,
The bits of life you took away,
I don’t know if I’ll ever have them,
Or if things will change even if I do.

But this feeling inside,
Every time I’m reminded.
Sends my temper shooting,
I could almost explode,
It’s like a war inside.

But there’s a bitter acceptance,
That I’ll never get it back.
I just have to live this way,
Though it’s not like I planned.

But this rage inside,
With all my pride,
Wants to fight with you,
And snatch it back.
But you won my time.

Oh, and this feeling inside,
Every time I’m reminded.
Sends my temper shooting,
I could almost explode,
It’s like a war inside.

I wish(to get it right)

I’m on a learning curve,
And I want to get to the straight,
And I want to get there fast,
I hope I don’t skid off.

But my imagination humbles my ability,
It always has.
I wish to learn enough to get it right.

This learning curve is different,
I’m focusing as hard as I can.
I feel I can do better,
But why is this so important?

It could be the time that it’s taking,
It always is.
I wish to be patient enough to get it right.

I need to get through this,
There’s more at stake this time.
I hope to take it across,
This responsibility on my shoulders.

And the courage seems to be coming through,
It always does.
I wish for strength enough to get it right.

Not possible

It’s alright,
Not being loved or looked after.
Because it’s just not possible,
That there’s nobody there,
Waiting to love you.
Knows your silent mouth,
Almost as well as you.

It’s just not possible,
That there’s nobody there,
Who loves you for the same reasons,
The one’s that you love yourself for,
Because you’re human too.

Dreams.

I have nothing to show,
Only my dreams
And a little hope,
And I know its right.

But the present fools the future,
And I’m living in the moment.
Reality fools my dreams,
But my dreams fuel reality.

And a part of my dreams,
Is to live my dreams.